My posting hasn't been as regular lately. My cast came off last Tuesday, and while I'm supposed to where my boot, I haven't worn it since the day after I got it. Scott grumbles about a waste of a $40 boot, and I grumble about being asked to where the dumb thing in the first place. I was told to "wean" myself off my crutches until my strength came back enough to support my leg. Little did my doctor know that I had been walking on my casted leg for a little over two weeks prior to the "coming off" date. Obviously he didn't notice the hole in the heal of the cast. I was grateful when he viewed the x-ray and declared my leg had healed "perfectly." Scott rolled his eyes as the doctor said "perfectly" because once again I got away with not following the rules.
Anyhow, all that said, I have been enjoying every moment with it off. The very next day I cleaned out the garage. I've cleaned out linen closets, bathroom cabinets, and Emily's bedroom which once again could have used a backhoe. We've been to the beach, the pool, and to town more times than I can think. I've been moving in to my classroom, and cherishing time with the kids during these last few days.
I officially start back to work next Thursday. Depending on the moment, my response to returning to work is either complete excitement, or breaking down in to tears. I have no control over which way the pendulum of emotions will swing at any given time. All I can say is that my heart breaks at the thought of leaving my babes, but my heart also longs to return to the job I love. Ih never thought it possible to want two things.
Finally, my last random thought for today is about our last minute trip to the Zesto in Chapin for ice cream cones. I often reflect on the things I remember most about my childhood, and I wonder what Emily will remember and cherish about her childhood. I would like to think that our impromptu trips to Zesto for a chocolate dipped cone will be among those remembered things. I love to see the look on her face when, after the dinner dishes are done, Scott or I will say, "I think we need an ice cream from Zestos." Definitely a sweet spot in my day today.